So I haven’t written anything lately, which I’m sure you’ve noticed (or not). I don’t even know what to write about anymore. This year has been awful, and I just have no motivation or inspiration, and this saddens me. I don’t want to feel this way or be this way, but I’m not sure it’s really up to me. I’ve lost friends for no reason at all, they just up and stop speaking or delete me, and I’ve yet to figure out how someone can just exit your life and you’re just supposed to be okay with it. All these medical problems with my family, and personal stress hasn’t helped matters. How am I supposed to get motivated again? Everything I end up doing gets fucked up, so unless something drastic happens, I’m sure I will continue to feel as if I shouldn’t even bother. Even writing this is depressing. But I just wanted to say hi, and that I miss you all. Hopefully I can come back around soon…….