So, I feel really guilty about something, and need to get it off my chest. I have been dealing with a lot of stress lately – personal problems, my grandma’s leg amputation, and now my father is dying of liver cancer. With all that, I had a massive ass migraine yesterday, the kind where you want to vomit or shoot yourself and get it over with? Yeah. So I was with my mom to visit my grandma, and I felt so bad that I laid the seat down in the car and went to sleep. My mother asked what I wanted for dinner when she returned to the vehicle, and I was so sick, I was just craving something I hadn’t eaten in a year and a half – Long John Silver’s. Okay, I know some of you are saying ‘Gross!’ but I like it, so bite me. I ate fish, and it was amazing, and sickening at the same time. At least it wasn’t beef, etc., and I know that fish have feelings too, but at least it wasn’t something that was tortured before it was slaughtered. I still feel bad though, as if all my hard work has gone out the window. Am I crazy?
I honestly felt nauseous from all the grease, but it tasted so good. This is why I feel so bad, because I wanted it so I ate it. I didn’t NEED to. I guess this is something I will always struggle with when it comes to fish, and I guess fish isn’t as bad as other types of meat. In case you were wondering, my headache is better after ibuprofen, Vicodin, and a good night’s/morning’s sleep. As always, thanks for reading! I’d love to hear your thoughts, after all, you guys are like family!